Note To Self: You Deserve To Heal — Thought Catalog

Dear you, The reader. The person behind the screen who’s suffering unimaginable pain unnoticed by those around her. The person who needs to know that someone is listening to her. The person who feels lost, scared, and unsure of what her future holds. This is for you. You deserve love. You deserve to feel something… via … More Note To Self: You Deserve To Heal — Thought Catalog

Recycling

Sometimes  I wish I could just toss The anger the hurt the guilt the evil Into a bin, a big recycle bin   Sometimes  I wish I could just toss “I hate you”,  “leave me alone”, “goodbye” Into a bin a big recycle bin   Sometimes I wish I could just toss The bullies, the … More Recycling

The Wind

The wind howls around the walls The trees bend and shake The plants bow and break The wind plays with the leaves Let me go out into the wind Let me feel it tug at my skirt Let me run in it, twirl in it, dance in it Let me sing in it, shout in … More The Wind

Shared Memories

Firelight flickers Soft glow surrounds Gentle voice Brings to life Silent pictures Treasured memories   Pictures of beauty Rich, Radiant colours Verdant greens Azure blues Russet browns Patchwork mountains   Pictures of death Dry bones, skulls Mementos of violence Achingly Grey Sorrowful reminders Heartbreaking history   Pictures of a nation Proud happy people Tattered and … More Shared Memories

Handle with care

Soft fragile shell Empty, hollow Still intact White, oval, pure   Design wrought Perfect, wondrous Wholly  exquisite Patient masterpiece   Handle with care Protect, pamper Fragile artwork Easily shattered   Man’s essence Throbbing life Wholly exquisite Crimson, life source   Masters design Perfect, awe-inspiring Pulsating love Fragile masterpiece   Handle with care Protect pamper Fragile … More Handle with care

Stress

Gut wrenching, stomach tightening, hands sweaty Head spinning, mouth drying, breath snatching Heart pounding, abdomen fluttering, chest closing Stress attacking the body…squeezing the chest Tensing the shoulders, like a vice gripping the head Hands wringing, legs shaking, lips quivering Stress attacking the body …..

Your choice

Sorry I let you in again Sorry I opened up again Sorry you shut me out again Sorry I ever called you friend You pulled me close You pushed me away You said you cared You showed you didn’t Be my friend Don’t be my friend Sorry to say You can’t be both  

Anger

Everywhere I go I see angry faces,  hear angry mutterings, partners sniping at each other, mothers shouting at their children, drivers hooting and gesticulating at each other, on and on it goes, angry hurting faces, angry hurting people all around.  Like injured animals we turn and attack those that care about us, those that are … More Anger

There is no one

You keep telling me that I need to hope and dream and work towards finding “the one”.   Let me give you a look inside my head for a minute. Please note, this is not a pity party, this is how I feel. I was married to a man who preferred to go out drinking with … More There is no one